Random Thought 037

This is one of the countless times that I wish I know better.

I'm not in the verge of giving up just yet. But I'm in the point where I start questioning my ability to get things done.

I don't even know if this is still what I want. If this is where I belong.

Sorry.

To my past that I didn't do good.

To the present, for disappointing myself.

To my future, for whatever stupid things I might do.

And as the rain falls down, my tears followed. 

Not from the eyes, but endlessly falling from my heart. 

Random Thought 036

Why do I feel alone, fat and ugly? Must be the rain.

Sympathy is the last thing I need now. I feel so pathetic writing this now.

And I officially joined the bandwagon of the /wrist type of girls.

What's wrong? Really?

SMASHED POTATO

I skipped work today for reasons that I cannot express here. But for one, the bad weather kept me in bed all day and the flooded areas along the metro contributed to my absence.

Due to boredom and my newly adjusted braces,

I made myself a mashed potato :)

Since my braces just got its adjustment,(thanks to Dra. Almond for the sky blue and baby pink rubber by the way) I knew that I will not be able to eat any solid food so I decided to make this. I know it doesn't look pleasing but I assure you that it tastes so gooood! :)

And my cousin could testify to this. :)

Shotgun

A quick glimpse of what has been happening to me for the past days (or months?)

My first UPLB experience for Ate Nissy's 23rd bday bash.

Epic night is epic! Can you guess? :)

Sundate with one of my best girl, Sam at Ace Water Spa, Mandaluyong

Ate at Uncle Moe's Shawarma. Rating: 7/10 Kabab is still the bomb! :)

Kuya Enzo showing off his SUNKIST ANGRY BIRDS. His baon buddy since he's schooling na :)

Late dinner at New Tohu, Binondo! :)

 One of the best Camaron Rebusado I've ever tasted! :)

 Baby Fuego being his usual makulit na self.

 Just like his Kuya. :)

Isn't he such a cutie? :)

Yea. Dingdong Dantes asked for a picutre with me at Post Manila, Makati :)

Rainy night ambush by Jeric and Tata. Nai Cha milk tea after Causeway's 40% off on all Dimsum carts.

White for a night! :)

Camwhoring with one of my best girl, Erika at Tides Shaw.

With the gang! Plus Jennika. :))

UAAP Season 75 Opening. My cousin in her most kilig smile.

 A heartbreaking loss against UST, but then again we thank Jeric Fortuna for the tickets. We still love you!

My first plate in Mr. Miyagi. Rating: 4/10. I'd still choose Sambokojin over and over again.

These people will agree with me for sure!

 Eto yung mga posts na di pinag-iisipan.


In case you're just interested of what's happening for the past 2 months. I've been busy with my work lately that's why I can't keep up with this blog.

I will try to get back on track!

Bye for now! :)

Let's put an end to this

This never ending cycle of breaking up and making up is not healthy anymore, you know? The endless fights. The petty quarrels. The negativity. Trust issues. Jealousy. Paranoia.

IT. GETS. TIRING.

I could not take the screaming and the yelling anymore. It was crazy and stupid but I had to do it. I need to get out of the car in the middle of the chaotic Highway 54. On a rainy Wednesday night. It was the only way out.

In that moment, I felt freedom but I was lost.

Walking in the middle of an unfamiliar place, crying is something people don't see everyday. I did not want people to draw their attention at me but I could not help if they find entertainment in my sorrow.

What's funny was that, I was laughing in between sobs, thinking "Is this even worth all the drama?" Not caring if people thought I was retarded or something.

Ayoko na. Ayoko na talaga.


Then you showed up. You wanted me to go back inside the car. I was to tired to ignore you, so I did what you say.

We tried. We cried. We talked. Ayoko na talaga. 


Pero hindi ko kaya. 




And eventually, after all the fights, the drama, the arguments, the misunderstandings and what nots, sumuko na tayo. 






Sumuko na tayo sa idea na maghihiwalay pa tayo.






Dahil hindi man lahat ng pagod nadadaan sa pahinga at pagtulog, naniniwala akong hindi din sagot ang pagsuko. :)