Refrigerated Cake.

I literally am not planning to blog about this, but since i got inspired with Sam the Great's blog. I thought why not write my own version of the story?

After being homebound for two days, finally, i get to explore the wonders outside the four corners of our house. The night before, we originally planned to meet up at 9:30am. But since i anticipated that Diana and Sam will be late, I did not bother waking up early anymore.

It was PB's 20th birthday. Honestly, never did i expect that we would be this close. We knew each other back when we were still in our Freshmen year. We were like strangers living in the same environment. Squatting under the same room for two years. Different personalities, different set of friends and different perceptions.

Then came junior year, I was not really thrilled to know that out of the 45 students in class, she was one of the two persons i will be classmates with for the next two years. It's not that i despise her. It's just that we don't know anything about each other except for our names. I never pictured her to be my seatmate for the whole semester. But as months passed, i started getting used to her being beside me. Chit-chatting, sharing secrets and exchaning countless giggles about our lovelives and whatnot. We got along really well and became closer as days progressed. I am happy. And i know she is too. :)

To Paula Bugayong, thank you! Thank you for celebrating your first year of not being a teenager anymore with us. Like what i said, i may not always be at your side, but i assure you that i am always here for you when you need me, Be it about boys, flirting or problems. Just don't rely on me regarding academics cause we both know i suck at that. Besides, we have Diana to fix it for us. JK. :)

I admire you for being a dreamer, a believer, an optimist and a survivor. Don't let your hopes down. Walk by faith. Always remember that I love you to bits and I will never leave you in times of trouble.

BAWAS BAWASAN MO ANG KAARTEHAN MO! HAHA! I will never get tired of saying that to you.

This might seem a little late, but what the heck? It's the thought that counts. Right?

 The Sansrival Cake that got me and Diana nuts! :))

P.S. I fell inlove with your refrigerated cake! Gimme some more!!!

Part 1: Of Letting Go

letting go must be the hardest thing to do in a relationship especially if you became too attached to a person.

but no matter how hard you try holding on. still your efforts are put to waste.

we let go of someone because we know that it will be the hardest and the best thing to do at the same time. herein lies the paradox. it's never easy letting go. you can't just dump a person because things didn't work out the way you planned them.

until the thought sinks into our minds that you cannot go on with loving a person UNRECIPROCATED. UNREQUITED. UNRETURNED. the picture of letting go comes our way. :(

never let someone step on your ego and dignity just because you love him/her. love was NEVER the reason to hold on to something that keeps on neglecting, ignoring and letting you go.

open your eyes. it's never wrong to stand up for yourself and say "hey, this is not working right.."

WAG. KANG. MAG. PA. KA. TA. NGA.

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she saw him. she never intended to see him. she had no idea what her reaction was. she wasn't ready at all.

she didn't look at him. same goes to him. their eyes never met at all. they ignored each other's presence. though she can't help but look at him walking away from her.

WALKING AWAY.  from that very moment. she knew, it was the end for her.

the time she decided to break up with him, she only let go of the thought that they weren't in the same page anymore. but she never let the idea of loving him slip through her mind. she continued loving him. more and more. but as she saw him, rage and anger dominated her. all the things he did came back to her.flashing in front of her eyes. she can't help but feel bad. but still, she kept the tears to herself. she was always in good terms with her tears. it never betrayed her at all.

it was then, she knew and was convinced that the time has come for her to let her feelings go too. together with him.

letting him go as if nothing happened.

 forgetting him as if he never existed.

I really did not put too much thinking with regards to my blog title. It's just that I am addicted to Gummy Worms. I am Bipolar and Living is one of the biggest struggle humans go through.

This is my emotional dumpsite. IT COULD BE YOURS TOO. :)