the last installment of my 3 part blog. you can read part 1 here and part 2 here. :)
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sometimes we do NEED to love a couple of wrong guys. so that we will be able to realize that the right one is still out there. WAITING. HOPING. and EXPECTING us.
enough of all the exasperation and lamentation.
so what if he dates several girls at the same time? not my problem anymore.
i wouldn't bother blabbing about what he did to me not because it's the right thing to do but because i can't afford to waste a minute of my life announcing to the world that he's a bad catch. (even if i already did.)
i've already squandered 4 months of my life being with him and all those wonderful days, thinking of could've beens and might have beens.
and i need to stop all the torture and masochistic acts.
the next time i'm gonna see him, i won't hide. i won't pretend that i didn't see him even if i really did.
naisip ko lang kasi na if i'll get too affected with him being near me, what's gonna happen diba? it'll only look that i'm the one who's taking all the blame.
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i'd still love to see him happy. seriously. he deserves it.
and if dating several girls will give him the euphoric bliss he's seeking for, then i'll be the second happiest woman in the world (next to his mom of course).
if i need to pay just to see him smile, i'll be more than willing to do so.
i won't lie, i still care for him and i don't want to be the antagonist in his life. i can't be bitter about this anymore, i just need to accept the fact that I. STILL. WANT. HIM. AND. I. LOVE. HIM. it won't change. maybe in time, it'll lessen, but the feeling will linger.
i can't be mad and blame him for moving on so quickly. that's a guy's nature.
it's not his fault if he's not armed with the knowledge about the three month rule, and finding someone to replace me in just a snap. he can do whatever his heart desires. after all, he's free.
and i am also free from his grip.
i should know how to accept things wholeheartedly. because it's the best thing to do.
it hurts so bad because i've loved too good. =">
destiny has its own way to make things better.
and i know i'll be better. i need to. i have to.
ginusto ko to e. panindigan na lang.
so anyone reading this, HI. I AM SINGLE. :))
Were you even in a relationship in the first place? :P
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