i would probably regret writing this but wth. loads of crap are shitting me right now i want to get it off my chest. all those who were in mimosa already know why i'm crying like hell that night. sorry. this post will be random. my mind's weary and my eyes are heavy. visions are blurred by tears. thousands of questions are bothering me right now. i don't know how to explain myself to someone who keeps on shutting me out of their sight. i hate everything that is happening right now. it's like my 20th birthday all over again. no. it's like my 18th, 19th and 20th birthday all over again. the only difference is that, it's a normal day.

when will this stop? when will you hear me out? i am really starting to believe that i really am the biggest disappointment ever created in your life. the problem child. the black sheep. the most ungrateful. the worst. the meanest. and the list goes on. that's what you tell your friends.

it saddens me that the efforts i make to make myself beautiful in your eyes goes down the drain just because of the false accusations you put on me. you never bothered hearing me out. you never listen to me. i was always wrong in your eyes.

i might have some issues. but you do too.