I'm happy for you. :)

I guess it's pretty obvious that you make me happy. Pretty much ecstatic at times. I've never been in this feeling since I can't even remember when.

I relearned to love the butterflies in my tummy feeling again. I embraced the late night heart racing conversations with you. I got used to the good morning and good night texts once again. I honestly believed that this could be it.

No matter how hard I try to hold back the feelings, I just can't. And yes, you caught me off guard. It's never really my thing to talk about feelings and stuff especially if it involves us in it. But somewhere in between, I was sure that what we have (or had) was real.

I was happy, and for the first time, I found myself smiling again. :)

It was normal Saturday afternoon in your village. You said you wanted to talk privately so we hang out at the playground. It was a long awkward silence. And I knew something was wrong. Slowly, raindrops fell. We were both ready to run back at your house but it was too late. We both decide to play under the rain. We were laughing again. Teasing and chasing each other like 5 year olds.

I stared at you for a moment, I looked into your eyes and I can tell he wasn't happy.

"What we have, it's special, right?" I asked. And even if I wasn't ready for the answer, I am hoping and praying to God that I get the answer I want.

"Of course.."

Then you pulled me closer and hugged me tighter. You gave me a peck on the cheek and looked at me again

"But what we have did not make me love her less."

I was not sure if it was the rain or my tears were falling endlessly. I couldn't tell. All I know was that it was one of the most painful experiences ever.

I wanted to slap you on the face and beg on my knees to choose me instead. I wanted to get mad at you but I didn't.

"I'm happy for you.."

And that ended our story.


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