This never ending cycle of breaking up and making up is not healthy anymore, you know? The endless fights. The petty quarrels. The negativity. Trust issues. Jealousy. Paranoia.
IT. GETS. TIRING.
I could not take the screaming and the yelling anymore. It was crazy and stupid but I had to do it. I need to get out of the car in the middle of the chaotic Highway 54. On a rainy Wednesday night. It was the only way out.
In that moment, I felt freedom but I was lost.
Walking in the middle of an unfamiliar place, crying is something people don't see everyday. I did not want people to draw their attention at me but I could not help if they find entertainment in my sorrow.
What's funny was that, I was laughing in between sobs, thinking "Is this even worth all the drama?" Not caring if people thought I was retarded or something.
Ayoko na. Ayoko na talaga.
Then you showed up. You wanted me to go back inside the car. I was to tired to ignore you, so I did what you say.
We tried. We cried. We talked. Ayoko na talaga.
Pero hindi ko kaya.
And eventually, after all the fights, the drama, the arguments, the misunderstandings and what nots, sumuko na tayo.
Sumuko na tayo sa idea na maghihiwalay pa tayo.
Dahil hindi man lahat ng pagod nadadaan sa pahinga at pagtulog, naniniwala akong hindi din sagot ang pagsuko. :)
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