Missing

It was a war between what we agreed we had and what we "really" had. It was too confusing that we always end up in a fight. Hassle. You know naman na you'll never win pero you still keep on raising the same issues. It gets tiring you know? Fighting for the same reason over and over again. 

But then I realized, it was your way to keep me in your radar. 

I miss how we end up arguing because of our contradicting views in life.

I miss the fights. 

But what I miss more is the "calm after the storm part".

The nights when you bring me ice cream in the middle of the night just because we had a fight

The impromptu dates on a school day just to make bawi for your pagkukulangs.

Those wala lang visits just because you miss me. LOL

I miss the scent of your car.

I miss how you always make me a priority over your other girls (haha!)

I miss that feeling when I was with you.

I miss how things were fucked up between us but we still get through the day.

It's been a crucial week, and I am missing what we had.  

I am writing this not because I'm asking for another chance because we both know we had enough of that. I am writing this just because contrary to what you believe in, the last five (six?) months of my life was well spent because I spent it with you.

Whatever this thing was, it made me happy. 

But today, I am letting you know, that it's it totally and completely over. 

Random Thought 039

It's not that I hate Sundays. I hate the feeling of knowing that the next day will be Monday. It's like knowing that something great is about to end. It's painful but you can't do nothing much about it. It's a routine that you can't avoid. It's the standard that we have to follow.

So we meet again.

Lessons from the flash flood

It was 6:30. I was really excited to shut down my computer and go home na. But the ulan was so lakas that I needed to stay a bit longer pa in the office. I was confused on whether to go home na ba or just spend the night at my tita's condo in Ortigas which is like 5mins away lang from the office.

But I decided to wait na lang for the ulan to stop.

At 8pm, finally the rain stopped. I went home with an office mate. I took the MRT to Trinoma and she took the jeep to Sta. Mesa. I crossed the bridge to SM North where the FX terminal to Espanya is located. A long queue of people waiting for the pa-Morayta FX was there. I waited patiently for my turn but the union of drivers declared that the roads to Espanya are impassable already so we have to alight na in Rotonda which is like so malayo pa from our bahay in Dapitan. I let out a mahinang "Tangina naman.." to show my frustration.

I had no choice. It's either I get stranded sa mall or I lusong in the baha in Espanya para makauwi. Then I realized, life is tough. It's hard to make decisions when your options doesn't benefit you that much.

I also salute the FX drivers who braved the Araneta traffic just to hatid the passengers even kahit hanggang Banawe lang.

I had to walk from Banawe to Dapitan and lusong the hanggang ass na baha. But I realized again, if I am doing this, I need to be handa. I stopped over the nearest convenience store, bought a pair of tsinelas and Chillz to keep me full.

Grabe talaga the baha! It was the worst! I was like crying na talaga and people were staring at me because I was nakatanga lang. It was the funniest and the most embarrassing moment of my life.

When I got home, I realized life is like the baha. It's deep.

To Sam Tungul, for the pagpipilit to sulat this blog.

Inspired by http://sankagesteno.wordpress.com/2012/09/10/lessons-from-an-mrt-ride/

From your grip.

Birthday Recap 2012

My birthday fell on a Thursday, but that did not stop me to have a series of celebrations that started in the middle of the week. Ten years from now, I will be re-reading this post on how I celebrated my 22nd birthday and say "I live a fruitful life 30 years of my life.."

Here is a "series" of celebrations I made on the week of my birthday.

Aug. 22 - The traditional birthday "salubong" with my HS bff Kim at Central Sheridan.

I was opting for a "Smurfs" look here but somebody's finger blocked the view of the lens. But I'm posting this anyway. 

Aug. 23 - Being in the Marketing field requires a lot of sacrifices, which includes: going to the office with a bad hangover, 2 hours of sleep and your Brand Review presentations.

But it also has its perks. :)

Mud Pie from my officemates. :)

 Mango Bravo from the first supplier I hired as a "professional". If you can consider me as such. Hihi! :)

And of course, nothing beats a simple house dinner with my other HS bff, Fae. Too bad, Kim and Fae's schedule are conflicting, the exact reason for the separate celebration with them. :)

Aug. 24 - Just when I thought that my birthday celebration was over, I got surprised by the morning greeting I got from my then-officemate.

My officemates, once again, treat me out at lunch here at Mad Mark's.

 "THE" Man Sandwich is really the perfect meal for the birthday girl.

 Came dinner, we had to say goodbye to on of our teammate, Ms. Erika.

 I will surely miss her. :(

 I wasn't able to finish Ms. Erika's despedida party for a late dinner at Causeway, Banawe with Jeric Fortuna and Tata Bautista.

A supposedly house party became a party of three with Ryan and Jennika. <3 Well I guess you know what that heart means already. :)

Aug. 25 - Reunited with my 1st year and 2nd year college gfs at Danna's birthday celebration in Oasis, Timog.

Oh wait, meet my new friends, Bojo and Mads. :)

 I have always, always been the friend without the partner but I really don't mind about me going out with them without a date because there will always, always be new friends I'm willing to meet.

 Happy Birthday, Danna babes! :)

 Too bad, Nie and Jer missed the fun after they left. :(

And of course, we missed Rae Siao too! :((

Aug. 26 - An eat-all-you-can lunch buffet, gifted by my soon to be bunkmate, my soulmate, the twin sister I wish I had (TENDENCIES!!!) Sam the Great. I love her to bits. :))

Sambokojin, West Ave's birthday present to me. Yay! Thank you to the warm staff of Sambokojin. Your service is the best ever, so far! I will definitely come back! :)

The come-from-behind win of UST against NU is the best week-ender ever!  I am so so proud of Jeric Fortuna for that 3-pointer buzzer beater!

ADDENDUM

Can you guess, what I did, who I was with and where did I go on Wednesday night. :)

Random Thought 038

Brooke Davis wasn't lying when she said that "The bad guys lie to get into your bed. The good guys lie to get into your heart.."

Random Thought 037

This is one of the countless times that I wish I know better.

I'm not in the verge of giving up just yet. But I'm in the point where I start questioning my ability to get things done.

I don't even know if this is still what I want. If this is where I belong.

Sorry.

To my past that I didn't do good.

To the present, for disappointing myself.

To my future, for whatever stupid things I might do.

And as the rain falls down, my tears followed. 

Not from the eyes, but endlessly falling from my heart.